The Final Round with Michael

Editor’s Note: The following article is an excerpt from my manuscript detailing my own abuse. Please see “My Story of Abuse” under the category link.

Couple Fighting

After getting back home from the expensive vacation, Michael and I continued to drift apart. Joshua seemed quite pleased about it all. He said Mom, “He is such a jerk and totally ruined our vacation.” I couldn’t disagree with him. So, I put the breaks on and Michael began stalking me. I went to class on Wednesday night from 7-10 p.m. for an evening class. I happened to look out the window at break time and there he was standing down by my car. I thought to myself, “Is he going to stand there for an hour and a half waiting on me. And, indeed, he did. Continue reading “The Final Round with Michael”

Myths About Child Abuse & Neglect

Myth or Fact

For a better understanding of child abuse and neglect, you will need to know the ones that are purely mythical.

MYTH: Parents who abuse their children are bad and unloving people.
FACT: Parents who are abusive are not in control. Being violent with a child will not make the child behave better; learn how to make good decisions in life, nor learn how to control their behavior. Continue reading “Myths About Child Abuse & Neglect”

Disney World

Editor’s Note: The following article is an excerpt from my manuscript detailing my own abuse. Please see “My Story of Abuse” under the category link.

Disney World

After a very long drive, we arrived in Tampa safely and we were all worn out. We went to our rooms to unpack and rest for a while. It was a beautiful, hot day in Tampa and the sun was just starting to go down. Continue reading “Disney World”

In The News

The Daily Sheeple

Krause recently wrote an article in The Daily Sheeple regarding the molestation charges against the former Speaker of the House, Dennis Hastert. I am with Krause, I want to know how these politicians continuously walk away from their crimes? It has been alleged that Mr. Hastert molested several boys back in the 60’s and 70’s that he was coaching.
While investigating Mr. Hastert’s financial crimes, it was uncovered that he’d been paying one of the alleged victims hush money in the amount of $3.5 million!
According to the prosecution: “The actions at the core of this case took place not on the defendant’s national public stage but in his private one-on-one encounters in an empty locker room and a motel room with minors that violated the special trust between those young boys and their coach.” And if that’s not enough to make you wretch—Hastert had the audacity to ask one of his alleged victims if could help him out with some cash.
Fortunately, for Hastert the statute of limitations had expired. Therefore, no charges can be filed against him.
I believe the “statute of limitations” needs changed for child sexual abuse cases. Just think how many Catholic priests walked for the same reason. And, the legislators would probably never hear of changing it—because some of them may be in the same boat as Hastert.
The article didn’t mention the welfare of the abused in this case. Why is the villain portrayed as the victim; and the victims as some type of irritation to get rid of? I would have loved to heard the damages to these men that was a direct result of the sexual abuse. Where’s that story?
I also noted about this particular article that they refer to Hastert as a molester instead of a pedophile. Molestation is a classified as a crime; while pedophilia is classified as emotional illness. It may have been realized right away that the charges would not stick to Hastert; and it would be better for him publicly to not be viewed as a pedophile because they normally never stop their abuse.
Child sexual abuse destroys lives. Hastert may have destroyed four lives or many lives throughout the decades, but let’s not refer to him as a pedophile.

Dating Michael

Editor’s Note: The following article is an excerpt from my manuscript detailing my own abuse. Please see “My Story of Abuse” under the category link.

Line Dancers

After six months of dating, Michael confessed to me that he had broken his ex’s back accidentally. Seems they got into physical altercations with each other pretty easily. Michael has a very bad temper and they were arguing. Michael tried to leave to keep from hitting his ex and she jumped onto his back while he was trying to get out the door. There was a staircase as soon as you opened the front door and Michael told me he got ahold of her and tried to set her down on the steps; she stiffened and hit her back on the steps breaking it. Continue reading “Dating Michael”

Child Neglect and Its Impact

When speaking of child abuse—neglect often gets swept under the rug. Some believe neglect isn’t a real type of abuse. However, not meeting a child’s physical, emotional, health care, supervision, educational needs and not providing safe housing is neglect. Neglect is definitely a form of child abuse that can have long-lasting negative effects on a child’s life.

I was neglected as a child and I still have vivid memories of going without food, clothing, emotional neglect and verbal assaults on a regular basis. I am now 60 years-old, and I still am fighting some of the long-term effects of neglect. I did not live in a safe environment living with an alcoholic, abusive father and mother. Countless nights, my sister would crouch down with me in a hiding place to keep our drunken Dad from taking us in the car. He would come home drunk and start screaming and fighting with our mother. I still to this day can hear them screaming at each other. One night, my Dad was actually going to shoot our mother! Continue reading “Child Neglect and Its Impact”

Moving Forward

Editor’s Note: The following article is an excerpt from my manuscript detailing my own abuse. Please see “My Story of Abuse” under the category link.

College Library

Michael wasted no time calling me when we returned from the conference. We spent some time talking on the phone and getting to know each other. Michael had been divorced for about nine months. He had one son, Jesse and his ex was still being a pain. There were regular fights about Michael’s visitation and what time to pick Jesse up and what time to bring him home. His ex was a beautiful woman but had issues with drugs and alcohol. Continue reading “Moving Forward”

Universal Pedophile Symbols and Abbreviations

The following are symbols and abbreviations used in the pedophilia community to communicate with each other:

Pedophilia Symbols
Pedophilia Symbols

Top Left: Boy Lover Top Right: Little Boy Lover
Middle Left: Girl Lover Middle Right: Child Lover
Bottom: Childlove online media

Pedophilia Jewelry

Pedophile Jewelry

Abbreviations used to classify their interests for other pedophiles within their ring:

* CL: ChildLover/pedophile
* GL: Girl Lover/Attracted to girls
* BL: BoyLover/Attracted to boys
* YF: Young Friend, used when speaking about a victim
* CP: Child Porn
* LG: Little Girl
* LB: Little Boy
* GM: Girl Moment – which is time spent with a young girl
* BM: Boy Moment – same as Girl Moment* AoA: Short for “age of attraction”
* MAA: Minor attracted adult (pedophile)
* AoC: Age of (legal) consent